moneyballer: by <lj user="dorkwithamask"> (91)
asher fuckboy millstone ([personal profile] moneyballer) wrote 2017-03-13 05:49 am (UTC)

[Screw up, big screw up.

Asher forces his eyes shut, the words sounding so far apart from each other. Jin's voice is kind and he doesn't mean it like that, as there are other letters and syllables and pauses in between-

Fine should be alright, fine should be okay. At least a week ago, he was perfectly happy with fine.

That satisfaction fluctuates, some days he feels like he's really nailed it (rarely, momentarily), and then others it seemed as if he's missed the mark by a thousand miles. But he's done enough to earn Jin's love, hasn't he? And that hasn't been easy.
]

I want to be able to do this.

[How foolish.]

I want to! I do, I just...

I wonder sometimes what I'm really cut out for, is all. You know what you wanna be, right? Or where?

I'm not sure I do anymore. Not like that.

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